Party of Trust
As I write to you here, I am sitting in a room where I have spent many years of my life. I'm sitting in my first child's room, where I can feel how the energy of bygone times is still there. The last few weeks I've spent a lot of time right here (it's funny) getting the music album to where it plays in my heart. To hear the sound of my heart and make it audible. And as it is, if we really want to hear that sound, it's like searching at night in a dark forest where we only hear a soft music that we follow. This forest is not always comfortable at night, often frightening and also frightening and yet radiates so much peace, trust, joy and love. And so this album in combination with this room was and is exactly that and a great healing for me. I would like to share with you what is happening and maybe it can help you to look inside yourself honestly, openly and yes, radically.
During the time that I'm creating the album here, tinkering with it, learning new things, discarding old ones, jumping in circles for joy and feeling sad, crying and laughing, I can feel one thing very clearly. My belly and my solar plexus. Yes of course... the solar plexus is the connection to our inner child, the sun, laughter, emotions and innocence. And all of this has intensified greatly in the last few days. I was repeatedly presented with new beliefs and really deep emotions. So also today in yoga when I cried tears. Tears that came from very deep and are still flowing now. And it wasn't really about me at first glance, but that I often worry about people close to me. When something happens, they're not feeling well, I supposedly see that they "could do something differently" and yet I just hope that they do it for themselves. That hurts my inner child, because it wants others to be okay, earlier (and in the emotion today) e.g. B. Parents, siblings, grandparents, in the partnership, ... . And I can feel how this part is getting easier and easier, because the energy and love of "little Tobis" and the people of this place fill me when I open up to them and myself. Because the more we do it for ourselves, the further it can go to the outside world. If I allow it to be the way it is and everyone lives their own life, bears their own responsibility, has made choices and also feels comfortable and protected in this space that is so perfectly fine and all of this for me as well counts. It's okay! Everyone can choose, live, love one way or the other and is so uniquely perfect and beautiful! Even if we might consider it “perfect” otherwise.
Yes, but "it has to be perfect" is one of the beliefs that I like to associate with it, I have to be perfect. And from "MY" perspective! if e.g. B. others think a song is perfect, "pfff, what's it to me". Thanks, but I can't find it. And it's not really about the perfect voice, mixing,... like professionals do or general perfection as we understand it. Because in every belief, as in everything, the polarity is united and we decide how far we push the controller in which direction and feel free to balance it! I see this more and more clearly in my example and also that every belief ("negative or positive") contains both sides and can be balanced. Perfection isn't bad, but it's not good either. It is an impetus when we know how to use it... I can just like it, like God does everything in this world. I want to dance, rock, sing, laugh, cry and just know, yes man, that comes from the heart! mega thing! 🙂 And I recognize the imperfection myself and love it, because what is noticeable is love, just like me in everything, not being good enough, fears, joy, ... hides and we feel from this perspective, from within and allowed to run into the forest to heal.
So I'm sitting here and two days ago I threw the old one out and almost started from scratch because I've learned so much that I can apply something that I'm already feeling – “Aiiiiiiih, that's exciting! You still have a little “work” ahead of you, but it will be a pleasure, because now it is slowly flowing into your heart.” And so does my love and the energy that flows through everything and what I feel inside me. Thanks! Thanks! Thanks! It's just a great lesson, a truly uplifting time (for me, you and the planet) and a joy to be here in this world to feel how we as humans are allowed to discover love!
And so I would like to invite you, especially in this upcoming Advent and Christmas season, to bring the "good and bad" together in you and to recognize how it can support you in your life without limiting you or leading you down a dead end. You are always on the path of life, your life! Decide for it! The new year will support you with lots of love and strength - 2020 - 4, the number of the heart! It is the time - NOW!
From the bottom of my heart!
Nam Terath
